Sep 17 2012

It’s a different kind of nervous

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I do know that I have a better-behaved batch of twelve boys and girls, and I think we’re going to do a better job covering material than I did with my last class. This is because, for the most part, we’ve all been in the school for two years now. All but two were enrolled in K4 at the school, and we know I made it through a year of K5! We’re ready to take on K5 standards and “buzz” to first grade–my new classroom theme is built around Kalamazoo College. I’m excited to talk about the election with my students. I’m excited to go on more field trips. I’m excited to teach! So, part of my mind tells me this year has to be better, but I don’t think I’ll ever shake this nervous feeling deep down inside that I will fail. That I won’t be enough. I guess a little Marianne Williamson is in order.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people, permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

As I enter week three of year two, it’s time to shed the fear and just do my thing. I think we’re going to be fabulous. There, I said it.

2 Responses

  1. Marilyn

    You are fabulous Alex. There is no doubt about it. Now go make those little children grow into caring, loving citizens.

  2. cathy morgan

    There is a Christian saying, God sends the inadequate to do His work but He equips you to be more than adequate with His help. I know this to be true. Hang in there. Kids always know if you are ‘true’. They can spot a phony from 10 paces so I have no worries about you. You will do great! It always about planting seeds & bearing fruit, sometimes you see the results & sometimes you don’t but always remember that you have an impact far greater then you can imagine whether it’s with the kids or their parents.
    Love, G’ma

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